Yesterday my grandpa passed away at the age of 87. That may seem old to some people.....but I FULLY plan on living to be at least 100, so to me this seems like his life was cut too short!
In all of the sadness that I am feeling for the loss and the loss that my mom and whole family is having....I am having a VERY hard time explaining all of this to my kids! Collin (almost 3) doesn't really get it, and seems to think that it is very cool that he has wings and can fly and be in heaven.
Kacey, on the other hand....this is tough! She is VERY interested in things and is VERY aware of my feelings! She is VERY in touch with how I feel about anything, and always seems to know the right things to say!
When I first found out yesterday evening she came right up to me after I told them what had happened and said, "It is okay mom, we need to remember the good times we had with Great Grandpa!" I was in SHOCK and was blown away by her ability to say JUST what I needed!
She had NO idea what she was saying or even what death really is......but in that moment she was so grown up and had the ability to just say the PERFECT thing!
We have been laying low today and just sitting around the house watching movies. I set out markers and paper in effort to do something fun today! I asked Kacey what she was drawing...and she told me that she was drawing a picture of Great Grandpa and her holding hands and she is going to send it to heaven so that he can "fix up his new home". I assured her that I would make sure that the letter/picture would be delivered and that he would LOVE it!
When she was all done, she broke down crying and told me how much she misses him. I am at a loss as to how to stay strong enough to give her a positive outlook on all of this and not be scared of death.....ESPECIALLY when she is SOOO in touch with how I feel.......and I am a bit scared too!